Morning breaks another heart
Another dawn that I can't see
I am blind to the start
and you are blind to me.
If laughter did not trouble
each thing I try to do
I could dig out of the rubble
and be noticed now by you.
How often have I tried to please
You've never even recognized
You stay as silent as the seas
You don't know how I'm hypnotized.
Morning broke my heart again
And joy seems just too hard to find
The smile my lips had has been slain
How can we both be so blind?
Travel
Travel on the wind with me,
explore throughout the air.
Continue on eternally,
and always meet me there.
If you find the sky too bleak,
and clouds too dark for you
Still travel on for what you seek,
and show me that you always do.
Fortune on the travel ours,
keeping light forever.
Take me with you through the stars,
and dearest, leave me never.
So travel on with me tonight.
Hold me in your arms so strong.
Remember always what is right
until the end of life so long.
Tell me truly, do you love
even though the gravel
So unlike your flying dove,
tries to end your Travel?
Please tell me that 'tis not a dream
that will end with light.
I wish that it could ever seem
It is my favorite sight.
Travel on the wind with me,
explore throughout the air.
Continue on eternally,
and always meet me there...
Desire
The desires that my eyes see,
with my heart and with my soul.
The things that I have dreamed of,
I cannot let you know.
And I have a little trouble
telling all the truths from lies.
I can hardly hear my thinking,
distracted by the skies.
Almost Feel Free
I can understand,
people come and go.
The strangest reasons to.
And I almost feel free.
I dreamed last night.
One in a million
that I won.
And I almost feel free.
If I could but be you.
See past the doorway.
I could be again.
And I almost feel free.
One heartbeat.
Where a smallest change
can be forever fooled.
And I almost feel free.
Young one, be
all you thought horizons
could show you.
And I almost feel free.
Changing heart,
broken soul.
Eternity is a step.
And I almost feel free.
Almost feel free...
Farther
If I could be nowhere,
away when no one can find.
I can only see that I'm farther.
You can't know.
I would see the flowering.
Silence and life.
I can see that I'm farther,
a heart that keeps me.
I could see nought.
My long gone needs.
I am so much farther
than the universe reaches.
I am far in another.
And no one knows...
Sunset of Old
Friends come, friends go.
Replaced by enemies as I grow.
Watching the Sunset of Old.
As the light fades, the sky fills with change.
What once was familiar, now is quite strange.
Hating the Sunset of Old.
Tears shed create and ocean wide.
No one knows how much I hide.
Fearing the Sunset of Old.
Nothing seems to be the same.
Cannot remember my own name.
Hiding from Sunset of Old.
I meet many hearts, all made of stone.
As away my life on wings is flown.
Watching the Sunset of Old.
Sun sets, my story told.
Until I Break
Life, the endless struggle for
power and happiness.
People fight and destroy
for what they want.
I try to stay on the outside
and watch safely.
But there are no bystanders,
no innocent.
I will last a while. I can
stand trouble.
But not for long. Only until
I break.
I shall break soon.
Shattered pieces of my heart,
spread like glass...
Single Smile
Known as Gloom, I walk.
My life, a road of winding trouble.
Not one understands the life led
by the poor and Nameless.
I am rugged and hard at heart.
Taught to be a warrior, you learn to.
None can see that we do all that we can,
when the World does nothing for us.
I can see them watching, staring,
waiting for my heart to release.
My hardness disappear for seconds.
Hoping my giving of a single smile.
And smile, I will, in time.
Hardships leave my hopes.
I promise a smile, a laugh.
That will last forever
I can find joy.
I can find hope again.
I will be pleasure forever.
When my love returns, not before.
Little Leaves Don't Know
Life can be full of hardships,
growing as we grow old.
But the wind blown leaves don't know this.
Oh, they have not been told.
Gold is worthless with none to love it,
and diamond just hard stone.
The leaves have never known this,
as away they've flown.
How I wish I could be a windblown leaf
going where the wind dreams to take me...
Life is hard for those who hate the Diamond,
and those who hate the Gold.
But the little leaves don't know this,
for they have not been told...
The Vineyard
Running through the Vineyard in the month's first dawn
was a child
the Lonely One.
Little Bird Hero
what will you do?
if only the Creatures knew you.
Living in the Vineyard
all her days
never seeing through the haze.
Poor little young one
no wonder you cry
soon the bird will fly.
Though the Vineyard
is bright in Noon
the girl could never stay.
The Creatures would destroy her
with the Moon
she must run away.
Creeping through the Tall Grass
as Creatures do
Little Bird coming for you.
Leave the Vineyard
Lonely One
'fore the end of dawn...
What Remains
I had a dream you thought of me,
a thing that never was.
I wished that you and I could see
everything the way that it should be.
There's something that I can't ignore
of who I think I was.
A way I felt, like nothing else.
For once we were in love.
But once again, just when I thought
I had some peace of mind
You got up and left me.
You left me behind.
Right now I sit and think of you.
You were the perfect one.
Now I remain with nothing
under the lonely sun.
Crazy
Trapped in a World without control,
nothing to do with what you know.
Or nothing you know 'bout what you do
and the people who whisper around you.
Everyone you know is crazy,
in a losing mental state.
You can't escape from being crazy,
can it be that it's too late?
Losing memories day by day,
you'd rather forget them anyway.
Though doesn't matter 'cause you can't choose,
in a game where anyone can lose.
Everything you know is crazy,
is it dumb or just plain fate?
You won't escape from going crazy,
I think that now it is too late.
They are going down the road,
thinking no one ever knows.
Pretending they cannot be seen,
invisibility a foolish dream.
Everywhere you look is crazy,
new lies mixing with the late.
Though they say that they're not crazy,
there's no doubt that it's too late...
Where Were You?
Where were you, when I was crying?
Where were you through all the pain?
Were you there, at my side... or were you gone?
Where were you, when I lost all hope?
When all I saw were tear drops in my mind?
Were you at my side, holding my hands, and helping me be wise?
You weren't there, and now I see the truth of you.
You left me rotting on my own.
Thought I could believe you, when you said that you were mine.
And now I realize through time...
Where were you? And who do you love?
You answer, but I cannot believe you now.
Who are you to take advantage? Who am I to be your fool?
I love you, more than I can say.
But even love can rot away.
I'll see you. Just in my dreams... Never again reality.
You stole my days, and destroyed my nights.
Through your ways, you made it seem all right.
I see you, and untruthful tears. Now I know your ways.
Just go away! Find another.
Where you'll be I do not care.
You weren't here, so now you're better off there.
Where..?
Abandon
She looked like a broken dream
left to rust upon the road
as she stared unbelieving
at the trust that escaped her
that ran around the bend
to lose her sight altogether
gentle child with so few memories
to rot into mistrust
sees the reflection of the World
in the empty drive before her
barely a block from home
but torn miles away from love
tasting for the first time
the blade of true hurt
She looked like a broken dream
as she cried out in pain
and called to them in hope
that perhaps they would return
but she was not left in jest
and the yawning silence answered
making all the world a hollow thing
that she suddenly despised
for not a single thing within it
knew or cared for her pain
which in that moment
seperated her for eternity
from her youthful faith
in the nature of humanity
She looked like a broken dream
as she spun to find her home
to return to the arms
of one she still believed in
and tell tale of the criminals
who were punished for crime severe
but vengeance did not heal
the wound of the knife
that left her still untrusting
of all creatures that she met
yet it was not their fault
for changing her forever
as if she had remained trusting
another could destroy her more
she is not the first child abandoned
and dreams are broken every day.
Again and Never
Do you know what it's like when you realize
all people do is try to sympathize?
Do you know what it's like when you close your eyes
and they never open?
Once I've finally found my joy, something that gives me hope,
there's nothing people won't try to steal from me.
I finally found a dream!
But you made me lose it...
I tell you again and again, my friends
I'm all right, I'm all right.
But when I see you dance and sing,
you know it makes me cry...
I imagine the moonlit paths, as the owls sing their praises.
I smell the Rose's love towards the Lupine.
I feel the song fill my heart, and feel true.
I feel right! And then you wake me...
You unmerciful beasts! Is the death of mine your only dreams?
Is every tear I shed a soul joy to you?
Or are you really so foolish as to think I thank you?
Oh, when will you take your victory and leave me?
The moonlight gladly the path opens.
Only to fellows do dreamers show them.
A smile of mind, a realized dream.
Worthless these you seem to deem.
Do you understand my plea?
Will you ever set me free,
and eternally let me
see with my eyes open?
Do you know what it's like when you see everything
you ever thought, you ever hoped, you ever dreamed
die like a whisper from no one's lips, and never then return?
Oh creatures, I should lose my mind...
A sunset on the darkened hills,
and stars of black shan't shine.
And I am certain I should die.
You've taken all of mine...
Remember your evil, joy stealers.
Remember what you brought was pain.
Remember to you 'tis again and never,
to me is never again...
Lifeboat
A lifeboat on the sea of pain.
An escape from the clouds of every day.
In the year of hurt that has broken...
the one who feels ancient, yet is so young.
There are those that question the escape.
Do not understand how sweet it is.
To float through another world for a time.
Those that understand, you know.
It is not wrong to wish for something more.
When it comes to nothing, it is clear.
It is all nothing.
Just a lifeboat on the sea of time, and it must float away...
Hopeless
I will only hope to find
what I cannot find.
I will push my feet before
and drag my heart behind.
I will strive, and dream, and wish
that I shan't lose my mind.
For once that much is gone from me,
never will I find...
Fighter Always
Dreamer's crying.
No denying.
Deep in sorrow,
no tomorrow.
She should give up...
Yet she's still here,
shaking off fear.
She can make it
good as it gets.
She's a fighter always.
Song of Destin
I can't keep myself from falling, much longer...
How I'll miss you when I'm gone.
Have we shared our final dawn?
If only I had been much stronger.
Sing the haunted melody,
slipping slowly into dream...
Hopeless Loss
I want you to understand.
Don't you realize?
I see a pair of eyes
Ever watching...
Won't you understand?
Someone laughs
And someone cries
Yet no one's there.
I learned long ago
We can't be alone.
We are helpless
To change.
There is no escape.
For where you go
Cannot save you.
I won't even try any more.
Leave me alone!
What good can the words do
To one who does not care?
Another icy stare...
Remove yourself
From this world
If it is possible
At all.
I've been left no choice.
You are but to choose.
But be sure I know
You shall lose.
Need
I dream of all the things to come,
and about my only one.
Yet somehow it seems to me
it does not have to be a dream.
Surely we can find the way
to ignore our yesterday.
Only what we wish to be.
Joyous for eternity.
And every word that you will say,
the shining Sun to light my day.
I need you most within my heart.
I dread that we must stay apart.
For any trouble, any deed
I will do to fill this need.
Change
Things begin to change,
yet I remain the same.
I know I don't belong.
Floating like a song
past the echoing hill.
Free, with no free will.
People always change,
still my heart is just the same.
Yet how can it be,
when I wasn't always me?
I changed long before,
and the child is no more.
Now things often change,
and I live in the shame
that I am unlike all but one.
When all the day is done,
a broken me remains,
for I am still the same...
Empty Is
Empty is the sorrow
is the sorrow
that I know
Even when I'm with you
when I'm with you
I'm alone
Empty is the knowing
is the knowing
how I care
All will go unnoticed
go unnoticed
so unfair
Empty is the anger
is the anger
that I feel
I have to keep it all
keep it all
under seal
Empty is my dreaming
is my dreaming
and my need
To you they are nothing
they are nothing
pay no heed
Empty is fast losing
is fast losing
all my trust
Faith in justice waning
justice waning
into dust
Empty is the crying
is the crying
for you all
So cold is the worry
is the worry
you will fall
Empty is the deep void
is the deep void
of the heart
Of those watching this world
watching this world
fall apart
The Young
For every child the rivers flow e'er onward to the sea.
With them their short innocence will always travel free.
And all the stars that wink at night remember without fail
every wish of youthful hearts, and every fairy tale.
All the trees sing ancient songs to those who are not grown,
their kind hearts sighing bitterly for those that long have flown.
Children in their beds will sleep, watched over by dear Moon.
Regardless of the years to come, the pain that grows too soon.
Infinity itself will see, as each new life unfolds
that youth is magical indeed, to be so new, and yet so old...
Tea Party
Misery is poor company
Regret is poorer still
Depression does sit silently
for his one word can kill
Secret hides beneath the table
with all of those that be
while the family of Sorrow
take their tea with me
Bitter is the tea we drink
Friend Pain explains it best
If the World had Sweetness
they would all be lain to rest
Hate cackles as I mention Love
and says that he himself
thinks Love is e'en more foolish
than belief in Orc or Elf
I smile and say I understand
often thinking so as well
having seen those 'round me find Love's wings
then watching as they fell
Secret calls up mockingly
that I ought to come down
for I myself have seen the lake
and in it did I drown
Anger gives him quite a kick
and says that that was rude
pointing out my darking blush
o'er what is sadly true
Denial quickly makes a jest
to save us from their fight
and it is soon forgotten
as we drink throughout the night
We had our fill of Bitter Tea
but the visit did not end
for Lonliness convinced us that
there was more time to spend
So we started up the music
and out came a mournful tune
that set us all to dancing
in the blue light of the Moon
Fear and Shyness hand in hand
stayed in the shadows there
while Cruelty stepped upon my feet
and Disdain did not care
Insanity leaped wildly
and swung me round and round
and left me where I landed
next to Secret on the ground
Revenge did try to catch him
but he was much too fast
knowing how to pop up suddenly
then disappear at last
Dread soon swept me up again
so I should not be stepped upon
holding fast 'till he was sure
that the danger was full gone
But Jealousy was green to see
me held by anyone
insisting that I dance with him
until the song was done
So went the dance until they said
'twas time to go away
but the family did promise
to return another day
Sailor's Bane
Believe in the Ocean
Believe in the Sea
Believe that your memories
All belong to me
Come here to our island
Come listen to our song
Forget what you wanted
It is here you belong
Place your feet in the water
Place your heart in my hands
Place your faith in our kindness
Lie forever in the sands
Wish not for your homeland
Wish not for their love
Wish only for the sunlight
In the blue sky above
Listen to our voices
Listen to each word
Listen to the only sound
You have ever heard
Joy is all that matters
Joy is what we are
Joy is here before you
No need to travel far
Stay with us here in comfort
Stay on eternal blue
Stay where you are needed
We want only you
Believe in the Ocean
Believe in the Sea
Believe that your memories
All belong to me
Thoughtless Words
Return to my thoughtless words
Words that come unwanted
Unwanted pain that follows
Follows me forever
Forever and much longer
Longer than I wanted
Wanted to know anything
Anything much better
Better than what I have seen
Seen before in this life
Life that is always sacred
Sacred yet forgotten
Forgotten by too many
Many times spoken wrong
Wrong to often return
Return to thoughtless words
I Am
I am what follows then
I am not now
I am when
I am what follows night
I am not day
I am light
I am the land
I am the sky
I do not live
I do not die
I am what was
I did create
I am this love
I cannot hate
I am what is
I am of you
I am right now
I am the truth
I am what will
I am the soon
I am your dreams
I am the Moon
I am the flame
I am the sea
I am all
Eternity
Today
Too afraid of life to live
Too afraid of death to die
Too much I can never give
Too much left to say goodbye...
Never Dawn
Helpless is the Queen of Dawn
when the Sun hears not her song
and pride is stolen far away
when no light will grace the day
Tomorrow laughs
while Present cries
and nothing lasts
while there are lies
All love must be
but history
and there is nothing
here for me.
What happens in the hollow heart
when all our lives must fall apart?
I cannot be free
but I am sorry
Broken Thorns
Regret in the memories
that will always say
broken thorns are still as sharp
and do not fall away
As we may desire them
they will never go
broken thorns are still as sharp
and never will you know
How the pain was written
deep into your heart
broken thorns are still as sharp
and do not come apart
Bleeding can be easy
when you have your pain
broken thorns are still as sharp
and dare to cut again
The heart that is still mending
may never be done
broken thorns are still as sharp
when regret has won...
Notice
I have not been anywhere
long enough for them to care
notice not the heart that tears
as they leave me.
See my words and dream of me
but their dream I cannot be
notice how they gladly flee
they will leave me.
Expectations - not of I
but a princess in the sky
notice that I cannot fly
and they leave me.
Cannot rise to their desire
that shall burn as does the pyre
notice that they lit the fire
as they left me.
Lonely nights with my own tears
shadows feed upon my fears
hungrily as my end nears
since they left me.
Bitter - as compassion lies
something pure within me dies
and the hidden child cries
since they left me.
Both
Deep in confusion...
how can it be so perfect,
yet make me so sad?
Regret
I do not wish to feel, and yet
feel all too well, and with regret
That seethes within me as I lay
awake, unwilling, another day
Deeds undone and words unsaid
invite the nightmares to my bed
That tell me of myself, and Shame
and something of another name
There is much unspoken here,
within the hidden secret fear
That even we may never know
until we are where all must go
Unhappiness, the world unkind
has placed within the mortal mind
Regret I cannot take their pain
and let them not feel it again...
Deny
Too much pain here
close your eyes
Let not this feeling
sensitize
Deny, deny
this is not real
convince yourself
you cannot feel
Close your eyes
and laugh in vain
shattered secrets
lost again
Once a Dream
Once a dream, once and forever
that which will never die away
Once my dream, you are forever
a hope that shall not fall astray
Once a dream, once and forever
a dream that lives inside of me
Once my heart, once and forever
the secret place where I am free
Once a dream, you are forever
the light with which my shadows die
Once a dream, you are forever
the single love I shan't deny
Forgotten not, you are forever
though time indeed may steal away
For all my heart, you are forever
tomorrow is but yesterday
Forgotten not, once and forever
my only world and my delight
Once a dream, once and forever
yet fading slow into the night...
Dark Dream
Daughter of Nothing...
Look into the darkness and see...
Pain is all there seems to be...
A burning and sadness of Eternity...
What do you think shall come of me..?
This is my Nightmare... Sweet Dreams...
Morbidsleep
To hope to live, shall we close our eyes
and sleep the sleep of the nearest dying
though wake we must, and so shall the day
restore our crying
Ignorance, a moment of your time is sweet
to forget, if only it were so
that the hourglass could turn away
this and all I know
Sweet dreams, your baneful solace must be
both wound and ointment for the healing
you give so much and take so little,
yet cause this feeling
This sleep, it saves us from tomorrow
as it kindly wastes our sad today
but unkind, the next is as the same
as our life fades away
Shall we close our eyes, our Morbidsleep
and for a time of selfish content
become neither of this world nor free
while our hearts are spent
To rest, to rest, shall I close my eyes
oh passive hatred, my dire bed
pain my blanket, fear a soft pillow
as I rest my head
To Death
Oh death, you are no release to me
it is from you that I wish to be free
you are, foul Nothing, my only fear
so my flesh shall feel no dagger near
and no option of escape have I
when I fear to live because we die
no desperate cut can comfort be
oh death, you are no release to me
Title
The Little Bird that cannot fly
The Lonely One who dares not die
The Dark Dream falling through the night
The Paradox of dark and light
The Daughter of the Dreaming Moon
The Tear whose pain is coming soon
The Nightgale, most of all I am
The hopeless Bastard of the Damned
Seed
The burning seedling of the tree
takes root and burns inside of me
and though I fight it, there it lies
undeniably
sprouting its tendrils deep within
to strangle me, and only when
I fight it does it truly burn
harsh as any sin
the stinging nettle of my heart
aches constantly, and dares not start
to open to the roots that may
tear it apart
but sharp the thorns, and strong the weed
that grow of this accursed seed
and they will gnaw the hole in time
stubborn 'till I bleed
the burning seedling of the tree
took root and burned inside of me
and though I fought it, there it grew
undeniably
Untitled
All I ask of life is to never live without you
All I ask of death is for you to outlive me
All I ask of time is for our love to last forever
All I ask of you is to never forget me
Hate You
A small taste of suicide
From me to myself
A precious gift that feeds my hate
Plentiful hatred
From me to you
Let it eat you to see how it feels
See how I feel
Rage in a prison
Insanity and pain
Will never show you mercy
Close your eyes
To see nothing
Hopelessness and heartache
Let it eat you and see how you feel
See how I feel